A blur grandpa's story

hmm..
in most of my friends especially housemates
i alwiz a grandpa for them

i admitted that i'm not a good grandpa
but a blur, rude and easily emotional grandpa
yes because of i alwiz blur, that's y they called me as grandpa
when i was emotional especially my personal problem
yes i will show out my anger or moody face

recently
you can see my face was alwiz written out
"I am moody" "I am angry" so on
it is sorry that i do not know how to hide my true color face
but i know how to hide my problem without anyone knew about it till now

maybe some of them might thought that my problem just a small matter
but for me
when the "problem" im facing right now i seriously do not know how to do
even i was thinking "if im him, what he will do?"
if you are smarter enough,
you should know the reason why i alwiz walked to school, didn't go for lunch or dinner..

sorry to tell you if i was hurted you
but although grandpa is a guy and should act stronger or tougher
but grandpa is still a human with some weakness also
i also need caring, i need lovely
i also scare of loneliness

so i hope you will still love i this blur grandpa
hehe i need a wife of course but harder to think as situation right now
anyway sorry for my emotional attitude then