unforgotten scene

tats too much scene related on him
even till now
i cannot forget watever he said, watever he brought, and watever he gave to me

juz now
i went to Bandar Damai Perdana
a place that we stayed after moved out from hostel
i could rmb the scene when the 1st time he brought me there
tat time was around 7pm sth wif raining day
i was complaining that it was far from our skool
but he keeps defend himself n said it's juz took around 10mins
as a result we still stayed there
but lifespan for half year only after the sad story happened

i wont forget the words he said to me
n the words i hate the most after it happened
"maybe when i left this world only u will appreciate me"
i HATE!!!!
i damn HATE this words!!!!!
y such thing will happen on reality ??!!

even till today
i still feel very sad
the only person i could rely on was no longer in this world
in my life
there are a lot of unsolved things and problems i facing
who suppose i should rely?