xmas gift

xmas gift
i'm sure every1 wish to get a xmas gift for themselves
no matter tat person is a kids
no matter tat person is a teenager
no matter tat person is a adult
they will still wish to get a xmas gift

some ppl treat it not exactly a gift
but a wish
1 of them is me
b4 i graduated from secondary skool
i will never think anything "xmas gift" during xmas

but
when i finished my education for SPM
during i having my car license
it's very exactly on the same day i having my test which is xmas
of coz
i wished to myself that if i passed this test tats considered as my xmas gift for that year
well at the end i was passed it

after the following year
my xmas gift was juz passed my university final exam
after tat i will never ask for anything

this year
to be honest
i seriously having a wish
juz tat this wish is really hard to come true
and to be honest again
i feel like do not want any single life anymore
i quite bored of it

i'm sure some of u might be laughing at me when u read tis
but yes
i wish to get a love partner to be with me forever
yet it's hard

"kimi o aishiteru
watashi wa anata hontoni suki desu
demo
ima wa yapadi dame
hontoni dame
dakara watashi no kokoro nakigoe desu
gomen ne..."