die

seems like i so long didnt online d
hmm..
i quite long didnt post new blog here d also
within this month
it's really happened a lot of things on me

recently i really moody and i very sad
i even sad till feel wanna to cry n feel wanna go to die
really suffering

ya
when i sad
usually got some1 will come n talk to me
too bad he was no longer in tis world anymore

so
i keep it for few days
n i keep thinking bout tat incident
tis world is not as easy as we think

sometime
i will even think to suicide better
i prefer to meet my best frenz in certain place

well
i even dun have any mood when doing assignment or my works
my tears seriously drying up
n not feel wanna to talk or do anything
but i couldn
i still need to submit my works
else things will getting more serious

no 1 will understand my feeling
no 1 willing to talk wif me
no 1 willing to give me some caring
i feel wanna to talk wif him

ytd it was a quite nice day
coz i talk a lot wif my cak
it seems like we didnt talk as much as ytd b4
thanks to her willing to accompany dinner n talk

tis incident almost influence my works
life is so realistic
u cant escape from it since the thing was there
u need to accept it no matter how

die bcoz of luv..tats stupid action
die bcoz of failure.. tats stupid action
but die bcoz of parents?

sometime i feel alone
sometime i feel bored
sometime i feel given up on my life
is tat my life?

die
die
n die again