心情世界

Christmas

2009-12-20T23:35:00.002+08:00

Christmas
again it is coming soon
it is a celebration once a year

sadly to say that it is just a normal day for me
tat's nth special for me
still have to live it alone

yet
for this time
if Santa Claus do exist in this world
to be honest
i wish Santa Claus could give me a xmas present
it is not a present that hardly to get
tat present is to let me pass for my Building Science 1 supplementary paper
can i?

i sincerely wish that this present do come to me on next year since the exam will happen on next year
unless it will be happen a miracle again on this year but tats impossible
anyway once it is happened, i will feel thankful to Santa Claus
thanks..

Merry Xmas and Happy New Year

也许只是想太多了

2009-12-12T02:18:00.002+08:00

今天花了半天的时间
都是和她一起
不过倒是有前辈在
其实也没关系了
多一个人也许比较自然一点

一早她就来我家
因为彼此答应好要互相交换动画
但是由于时间不足
只好放了一边
就去前辈的家了

呃...
前辈戴我们去看动画展览
因为那里可以买到比平时更加便宜的动画
所以我也买了3部动画
可真是久违了
也很久都没买动画了
相信吗
平时都起码要RM20+ 的动画
竟然可以以RM5来购买

她也买了不少
前辈是买最多了
所以为了公平其间
大伙儿都换到一个礼物
也是动画迷尼手电筒

之后便出发去TS了
由于前辈很难寻找空的停车位置
也为了避免买不到电影票
前辈决定把我们两个给踢出去
往电影桂出发

大排长龙
但最终还是买到了
是接近6点的时间
没办法
好
我们先去解决我们的午餐

想太多之一发生了
来到餐厅
前辈就往里面那座坐下
之后我就坐前辈的旁边
起初是看到她拿起前辈前面的椅子
正想着她应该是决定坐那
但是万万没想到
她突然换去我那里
也就是坐在我前方
这究竟是怎么了??

解决后
前辈要去修剪头发
就边等戴她别聊天

之后我们就去Low Yat
因为前辈要去见他的家人
同时她也能去寻找她所要的DVD
就陪同她一起去寻问

由于时间不早
我们就回去TS
上个厕所
买了包米花和水
去看戏

座位很普通
她就夹在我们的中间
也没什么事情发生

看完了之后
已经是晚餐时间了
就去那里附近的小餐厅添饱肚子

想太多之二发生了
同样的情况
前辈选好他的座位
我却坐在前辈的旁边但反方向那里
试看看她会坐哪里
也没想到
她坐了我的旁边

一阵子
前辈的父母要求他去TS见他们
那只剩下我们两个
除了聊一下天
几乎有一点静了下来
其实感觉上那就是表白的好机会
但是我本人就是一个很害怕失败的人
所以没采取行动

完毕后
就回家
领取我的车
也载她回去我家再领取她的车
一路上
又让我感觉上表白的时机到
但是最终还是没行动

就这样
她的硬碟暂时摆在我家
因为时间也很迟了
明天她会来向我领取

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或许我爱胡思乱想吧
其实一路上
她都常碰我的衣服或拉
比如说
她快饿扁了
结果就拉我的衣服说她很饿
还有
当她要问我东西时
会一根手指一直碰我
也偶尔会推我一下
是怎么了?

其实女人的想法是不是比较单纯?
就是朋友逗着玩而已?
但是对男人而言
就是一个特别意思

所以我也不清楚女人和她的想法
也许这一切我都想太多了吧

黑暗世界

2009-12-08T02:59:00.002+08:00

总觉得
这假期跟往常的不一样
应该也是因为得补考吧

现在跟开学的期间相差了不到一个月
所以说要做工
恐怕也很难可以找到
除非他们都不嫌弃我只做在星期六和日吧
感觉上只在半天掉

这个假期
对我而言
几乎是灰色
我过得很不开心
时时刻刻都会想到补考的事

试想想
在假期也得读书
别人可以安心地工作或游玩
而自己却要温习功课

灰色天空, 灰色假期
乌云满满, 心情沉沉
天空哭泣, 心里哭泣
黑暗世界吗

决定性

2009-11-29T22:47:00.002+08:00

明天将会去见老师了
是否能补救还是失败
明天将会是一切的决定性了

虽然说
在考试我不能说是做得很好
但是却也没有到不及格的地步
当老师说我在考试上做得很差
那么是所谓的少过24/60 还是 30/60?

照原理来说
假设我得不到24/60
那么我就不能补考
但是现在我能补考
意思是我达到最少都有24/60了
将我的总成绩扣了这24分数
那我的功课分数只有16分吗?
但我的功课1明明是在A的
也就是起码都有15/20...
这样我的功课2不就是1/20或2/20吗?
合理吗?

说真的
不是我对自己没有信心
只是对方不是一个能好好说道理的老师
要要求老师让我看回之前的考卷
就像升天那么难

所以期望并不是很高
也该对自己有所觉悟了

明天就是...

...决定性!

失败

2009-11-26T03:05:00.002+08:00

没想到
当老师一回复我
EMAIL上是那么写

Dear Jenn Wav,

I have looked at your results and exam booklet and sorry to say you did not do well for your exams.

I have informed in class that your exam makes up 60% of your semester assessment and what that means.

The assessment percentage for the semester’s projects and exam was explained thoroughly through the course outline explanation.

You will be offered a Supplementary Exam.

I will be in the office on Monday, 30^th November.

Regards,

Pn. Noorseah

这已经证明我是肯定不及格

但是

不管我怎么想

我始终无法相信我竟然在考试那里失分

可是

老师已经表明看过了我的考试纸

已经是没希望了

奇迹

已经离我好远好远

事实已经在眼前

还需要追求奇迹吗?

还需要争取奇迹吗?

还是

放弃那个渺茫的奇迹?

我是不是该宣布失败了?

怎么办

2009-11-25T01:06:00.002+08:00

今天
得感谢KS和LINXIN
因为他们都陪我出街
让我从这黑暗的房间出来透透气

他们带我去观看电影
但是偶尔还是会回想成绩的事

笑
也是一下
不知怎么的
不会像平时那样地哈哈大笑的开心
怎么办?

老师始终没有回复我的EMAIL
她是不是不想理会这些麻烦事情?
还是她已料到这种事情会发生
所以先走临机?

明日
看来也只好去学校一趟了
不管怎么说
都得试一试

万一失败的话
我该怎么办?

微笑

2009-11-24T01:40:00.002+08:00

微笑
这何等的抽象"物体"渐渐地消失在我心里

微笑
对我而言已经是很虚幻了

微笑
只是虚假地挂在我嘴里

我已经无法再笑
不管只看到有趣的,搞笑的,无聊的等等
我也无法笑得出来

黑暗已经隐藏在我的深处里
烦恼也不断地增加
这假期将是我黑暗的假期
会让我过得最黑暗的生活

微笑
究竟是什么?

奇迹

2009-11-22T02:04:00.002+08:00

奇迹...
这东西几乎很少会出现在我身边

但是
直到现在
我都依然希望奇迹会出现
而且尤其是现在这种情况
我更希望奇迹会出现

老实说
我真的没把握和老师上诉
虽然之前学会上都层级跟上级领导人物上诉过
虽然也成功过
但是这次的例子几乎成功率很渺茫

我真的很害怕失败
但是朋友们也觉得我不应该会不及格
也明白那些人说
"不试怎么知道"

啊
这句话也曾经给我的好朋友说
"You're never try, you'll never know"

真的很希望奇迹可以出现
我真的不想不及格
我真的不想重考
我真的不想重温习
我想跟大家继续前进一步

奇迹...
你是否可以出现吗...

最伤心的一天

2009-11-21T01:48:00.002+08:00

读了那么多学期
这学期是最伤心了

不明白
为何我会不及格?
不明白
这非常痛苦熬下去的一个学期
辛辛苦苦一起读
但是到后来还是不及格

真的真的很伤心
明明在考试的时候做得蛮信心的
为何还是不及格
总觉得哪里出错了
星期一得向老师上诉

不管怎么算都好
也没有理由那么低分
也再怎么跟朋友比较
我也不可能有不及格的可能性存在

这假期看来会过得不安定了

这是我这一生读书以来最伤心的一天

之前也曾经告诉自己
一旦有任何一个科目不及格的话
干脆直接停学了
出来工作不要浪费父母的金钱了

现在
它已经"实现"了
我是不是该停学呢?

我很痛苦
下学期就是最后一年了
我不想推迟一年或学期
我想跟自己这一班朋友一起前进
我真的好想继续前进....

遭遇

2009-11-19T04:01:00.002+08:00

在我们的人生
总是会遭遇不同的事情

我相信每个人都会拥有自己重要的人
不管是家人,情人还是朋友

那假设某个重要的人突然小时在你眼前
你会如何?

或许在过了几年后
那个人突然间出现在你的眼前
可以说是死者复生或某人和他长得很相似
你又会感觉如何?

刚刚看完某集的动画片
主人公的情梅竹马在他12岁时遭遇不测而离开人间
那个情梅竹马可说是一个永远相信他, 支持他, 照顾他和爱护他的女人
甚至已经注定和他结婚了
但是因为某天她参加了一个露营而出了意外了

就这样主任公也过了六年的生活
他们所许下的承诺
他也年年都办到

但是

在某一天
突然一个女生出现在他的眼前
而那女生跟他的情梅竹马长得一模一样
当然他也吓了一下

几天后
有人问主人公
"会不会就是她?"
主人公只回答
"我的她永远只存在12岁的时候而已"

换着是我
我也不清楚该怎么做
但是只觉得那个过程是很痛苦很痛苦地熬下去
这可不简单啊

Comment bout this sem (Finally)

2009-10-21T15:30:00.002+08:00

Finally...seriously it is really Finally
we finished our this sem "journey"
and a miracle happened that WE R STILL SURVIVED!!!!

ok
this sem is really a hardship life compare to previous sem
ever experienced before at least 6 submission within a week?
actually if counted seriously
it suppose 6 submission within 2 days
exciting rite?
tats totally WTF

this sem
we somemore met a fucking crazy lecturer Mr.Ariff
he was teaching us design subject
he was an useless lecturer..opps..NO..he failed to be a lecturer
ever meet a lecturer who would said "im lecturer i can late u r student u cant"?
and a lecturer who likes to show off his Master lvl education n skill but w/o showing anything in front of us..juz a crap
alwiz rejected our ideas..it is almost 80% of students ideas got rejected but during review day..the ideas was suggested by our panel..
and because of him..my design totally is a rubbish
even Mr.Redzwan gave me a words "last sem ur design is top 1st and 2nd students, y this sem u will like that, im kinda disappointed to u"
hell..feel wanna to send Mr. Ariff to this place
thats y we formed AAC which mean AntiAriff Club

this sem i finally experienced more than 24hrs never sleep
bcoz of rushing the stupid building science final assignment
after tis stupid assignment submitted directly went home and sleep
and 1st time i slept till cant realize any1 knocked my door
once i woke up and directly did our next assignment..Services
and this assignment i also slept for 3 hrs
the design final assignment..
went to wai choon house
every day juz slept for 3 or 4 hrs den continue to work
WTH of the tough course it is ...

the damn good system changed
our final exam for every subjects have to cover from 1st topic to last topic
i wondering our course is more on practical or theory..

facebook
y everything must announce through facebook?
WTF the E-advantage for?
do u think we can 24hrs sit down in front of the pc n keep clicking facebook?
dun assume every1 like certain students alwiz clicking facebook every few mins
when doing homework..certain of us r realling focusing on our works w/o on internet explorer or firefox...
WTF...
sometime i was damn wish the Facebook could bankrupt
coz i think everyone is too much rely on Facebook and most of their online time is in Facebook till they dun even can focus their works and even work while Facebook..
come on..if u r the type can finish the work very fast..i dun mind u did it so..but if u cant finish the work in faster way, focus ur work than ur pc, if u dun have tis strength to focus ur assignment, off ur fucking internet explorer and firefox...
even sometime i saw some of them alwiz facebook but their work cant finish n have to sacrifice their sleeping time on work..i dunno i should pity on them or laughing on them..
come on..i dun even think tat..3 days...given u 3 days time to render ur floor plan, sections and perpestive is too short..n w/o rendering anything still dare to show out during External review..r u looking down on External review?
i dun think tat u have no much time..u can do it by cutting off ur facebook time..fuck..

ok..
after tis sem..juz pray everything can pass and proceed to next sem
kick off the stupid Ariff and changed back to previous management system...
n enjoy my holiday..
tats it..

loss weight

2009-07-17T21:38:00.002+08:00

wow
it's been long times i didnt write my blog d
coz was bz my assignments till crazy
but rite now i still not yet finish > <

it's been long times i didnt go and measure my weight
today i went to wai choon's house
n borrow tat thing n measured
WTH!!
i was shocked when i saw the number of kg
my weight was 58-59???????
omg!!!
i think last year was around 65kg
now loss till tat big amount?
sure or not?????

lol
i quite happy o..=X
it's been long time i didnt get a weight less than 60kg o
but think another way
i loss the weight izzit coz of the architecture course?
coz it is torturing us =X
but usually i was eating burgers as my dinner..skool days i got took my lunch
unless weekend if i didnt hang out
den i wont take any lunch
hard to imagine i got the weight below 60kg
haha

A blur grandpa's story

2009-07-01T22:23:00.002+08:00

hmm..
in most of my friends especially housemates
i alwiz a grandpa for them

i admitted that i'm not a good grandpa
but a blur, rude and easily emotional grandpa
yes because of i alwiz blur, that's y they called me as grandpa
when i was emotional especially my personal problem
yes i will show out my anger or moody face

recently
you can see my face was alwiz written out
"I am moody" "I am angry" so on
it is sorry that i do not know how to hide my true color face
but i know how to hide my problem without anyone knew about it till now

maybe some of them might thought that my problem just a small matter
but for me
when the "problem" im facing right now i seriously do not know how to do
even i was thinking "if im him, what he will do?"
if you are smarter enough,
you should know the reason why i alwiz walked to school, didn't go for lunch or dinner..

sorry to tell you if i was hurted you
but although grandpa is a guy and should act stronger or tougher
but grandpa is still a human with some weakness also
i also need caring, i need lovely
i also scare of loneliness

so i hope you will still love i this blur grandpa
hehe i need a wife of course but harder to think as situation right now
anyway sorry for my emotional attitude then

carry a girl

2009-06-11T20:24:00.003+08:00

uhm..
this morning
it's quite fun actually
it will not as bad as i expected
but it's suppose will be more fun if my "UFO" can fly across the swimming pool
because i didnt expected the "accident" happened on my "UFO"

as a result
even our "UFO" can fly over
but we also have to jump down to the swimming pool
of coz they will nobody force me to jump down
but i was thinking to jump in the swimming pool as volunteer

quite deep for me since i dunno how to swim when came to 2m deep
so most of the time i was playing around at the below 1.6m deep there
and of coz they were several ppl pushed me to the swimming pool when we were preparing to jump down group by group
oh yeah
when we have to create a creative "jumping style" to jump down the pool group by group
it was so sudden when our name was called out coz as our group should be no 4 but it's no 3
so both of us cant think any of "jumping style"
till Niko said "carry Rachel to jump in"
so i juz asked her whether allow me to carry her or not
she is the gal very sporting and dun mind with it
so our style is guy carry the gal as new husband to carry wife to enter the room hahaha
therefore when i carried her..every1 was "bravo" like hell n den we jumped in
fuiyo
it is my 1st time experience of carrying a gal
even i didnt did it to my ex b4 lol
honestly she is not heavy at all
somesort of small little gal
i quite scare that i cant carry her in stable mode lol
juz hope she wont be regret if same group wif me la haha
bad senior XD

so totally it's quite fun
we played around in the swimming pool
such as racing, spread the water and etc

sux assignment

2009-06-10T01:54:00.002+08:00

1st day of new sem started
was my damn fucking dulan's day

wat is interior architecture?
design sth no related on architecture stuff?
asked to design a fucking flying object which is cannot throw but have to fly across 13m size of swimming pool without touching the water with the limited materials????
can i scold them
"fuck u all, sucker"

even till today
my mind even got idea but cant make it
im really frustrated rite now
can i kill ppl?

somemore have to same group wif a group mate w/o giving me any idea at all
feel wanna use my full energy to punch the wall rite now

well
from the progress
im getting ready to fail this subject for this sem d

i seriously heart pain wif my 1st day performance
jeffrey..GTH plz
fuck u off!!!

Yay!

2009-06-06T02:56:00.002+08:00

finally our result was out
hmm
not that good compare to other ppl
but it was improve a bit compare to previous semester
and i found sth weird
the subjects i most scared to fail
but there got B grade -.-
and den another thing quite disappointed is ks told me my design got A
he saw my mark at studio there
tat time i d feel strange as i dun think my project 1 n 2 can get such high mark
at the end the result was B+ haiz

ok
finally a big stone threw away from my back
i can play as crazy as i can afterward
next sem will be a tough sem
y?
coz we need to see ms Baizura in design + add on another Mr Problem Ariff
and Mon, Tues and Thurs was full day class
but fri no class wahaha
and we will having the class together wif our junior
so it might be some stress since they also very pro

anyway
bought a new badminton shoes
today was juz tried it and play badminton wif wai choon and neo
haha
syoknya!!!

Secondary Memories

2009-05-28T01:23:00.003+08:00

ah!
it was 6 years after graduated from secondary school

that day when i went back to Malacca
2 of my classmates from secondary school whose is twins brother actually
came and visited me
they brought me went to see another of my classmate

well
it was likes too long never meet some of my classmates
1st question i will ask to them
"what are you guys doing right now?"

according to those classmates who studied at local university
90% of them are going to graduate on this coming month
so most of them are going to hold the office bags already
a few of us still holding school bag
haiz

when i heard the news from this two twins brother
some of my classmates are doing fine and some even gave me shock impression
a few girls are training as teacher for primary and secondary school

oh!
secondary school..
think should go back and visit our teachers
quite miss our certain teachers especially our teacher who taught chinese
quite hate of certain teachers especially our physic and english teacher
physic teacher from the begin looking down on us till the end
english teacher was to show off whatever he did during his past

during secondary school
my life actually nothing much interesting
as people always said secondary school should have a lot of interesting school life
but for me, or for my class, there was NO

i just remember i ever represented our Rumah Sukan and school for sports
when i changed to this school during form 2
i represented our school to participate 100m and 4 x 100m athletic sports
but lost
because there were a lot of malay runner there
then form 3
i represented Rumah Hijau as they chose me to participate 200m athletic sports
not to act arrogant but seriously our Rumah Hijau quite pro in sports
for this program, i honestly quite sad because i was lose
we divided to 2 rounds as 1st, 2nd and 3rd runner of 1st round only can proceed to final
yeah i did it as i got 2nd and 1st and 3rd also from Rumah Hijau
when proceeded to final round
i do not know what is the problem with my legs
suppose i can get at least 3rd but things were not under our expect
so i lose
then that year i was participated Men Double Badminton competition in our school
although we beat the 1st round
when proceeded to 2nd round, i met my pro friends
so also lose

for my final year which was form 5
suppose i can participate another athletic sport
but because during test for jumping
i was accidentally bent my legs
so i have to rest up for few weeks
haiz

anyway
hopefully it will be a chance for me to have a secondary school gathering
even though i knew the rate is definitely low
so hope to see you guys again!!

unforgotten scene

2009-05-23T15:19:00.002+08:00

tats too much scene related on him
even till now
i cannot forget watever he said, watever he brought, and watever he gave to me

juz now
i went to Bandar Damai Perdana
a place that we stayed after moved out from hostel
i could rmb the scene when the 1st time he brought me there
tat time was around 7pm sth wif raining day
i was complaining that it was far from our skool
but he keeps defend himself n said it's juz took around 10mins
as a result we still stayed there
but lifespan for half year only after the sad story happened

i wont forget the words he said to me
n the words i hate the most after it happened
"maybe when i left this world only u will appreciate me"
i HATE!!!!
i damn HATE this words!!!!!
y such thing will happen on reality ??!!

even till today
i still feel very sad
the only person i could rely on was no longer in this world
in my life
there are a lot of unsolved things and problems i facing
who suppose i should rely?

Do u understand?

2009-05-20T02:45:00.002+08:00

after i watched an anime Clannad After the Story
i found that it is a tough to be a guy
y i said so?
to be a guy, we have pretend stronger in front of our beloved
we need to be an entrust person for our beloved

do u understand that
a guy can even cry like a baby when they r facing the prob?
it is yeah for some of the gals think that it's useless if guy keep crying
hey. come on
do u know that guys also having the same feeling, same heart and same thinking as gal?
we are also a human
we can act strong and stronger
but once we reach our limitation..we have no other way but crying
do u understand that
we doest have any optional to choose either gal or guy

do u understand that
no matter how tough of our life but we will still give our best to the family n beloved?
do u understand that
a guy could sacrifice wat he is having to give his beloved?
it is yeah that some gals r thinking that they didnt force the guy to treat her nicer
but a guy keep hiding the fact yet the gal will never know how was the guy feel to her
it is true that guy alwiz that stupid and sacrifice wat he had to his beloved
but tats a guy's style to want his beloved having a wonderful and happy life

do u understand that
it is not easy to be a father of child or children?
no matter how tough of ur life
as a father will still giving his children a happy life
but do u understand that
when a father saw his children healthy and active
he will feel worth to be sacrifice for them?
and do u understand
even to be a father, he will still crying in front of his children?
because he will reach the limitation w/o any support
but once his children hold his hands
he will give a warm smile to his children

we like to watch movie or anime
but watching not only to gain the fun or entertainment
also gain the moral and lessons given from the show
some of the ppl juz to enjoy the movie
come on
there r a lot of indirect or direct lesson given from the show
it's doesnt mean that we need to experience the incident only we understand the situation
if u can catch our the meaning of the story
then u will understand how is the situation without happen it

watever i wrote here doesnt mean im shooting all the gals
juz want to let some of the gals know
try to understand our guys' feeling and thinking
we r also a human
it doesnt mean that something should done by guys
different people have the different boundary of limitation
sometime we also will get hurt
sometime we also will cry
sometime we also will weak
sometime we also need a gal to support
we cant alwiz pretending stronger in front u
but we can try our best to give u a better life

so

do u understand?

External Review

2009-05-12T17:55:00.002+08:00

today is our External Review
it is not all the students will get review
and i was juz shocked when i heard wat our lecturer said today
suppose our lecturers chose 14 students out of 25 for external review
but today he said the panel will choose another 5 person from 14 to review

well
i tot i will not get it since my boards and model r juz like shit
but at the end
one of us is me > <
5 of us r me, KS, Atousa, Woan Ying and Saw Yin
3 gals and 2 guys ><

it's still ok since the panel juz gave me some suggestion to improve it
overall of ideas he said good and interesting
and he chats quite a lot with me
of coz regarding on design
and some new knowledges from him
"aesthetic purpose also fuctional"
"design must according to construction"
"design doesnt have right or wrong"

by the way
the panel to review me
actually quite fierce from wat i see from our senior batch
he was shooting our pro senior's work
so when i noticed that he was choosing me
i was thinking "die"

anyway this is my 1st time to get external review
and still need to thanks Mugen and Sue Teng

----------------------------
tot today can watch movie wif her
but yet i cant make it since we didnt done our project
it's bad if juz leave them to do themselves w/o helping them
juz feel "too bad" tat i broken promise
dun think have another chance for watch movie wif her again...

Final Project

2009-05-08T18:18:00.002+08:00

our final project - Project Zoo
it was the 1st time get praised by lecturers during internal review day among previous sem
last 2 sem i alwiz get shot by the lecturers
but for this time
i make it

they like my idea for this project as well as the design concept
from wat i can see their aim through this review
they dunwan us direct to get the characteristic of the animal to apply our booth
they want us to apply the indirect way of ideas on our booth
1st time i was answered back their questions lol
maybe those questions d in my mind b4 the presentation begin

but to be honest
all the ideas, i mean like y i use rock on my booth..
n my design concept as well as my design forms also
and also
would like to thank to Mugen and Sue Teng also
Mugen, the person who willing to stay together wif me to give a help when my 1st crit failed
he's the person who stay back and accompany me and also to help me develop as well as solved the problems i faced rather than some of them juz leave the class directly
"thanks" to them
i juz keep silent when i saw tis kind of situation
even they simply gossip bout me n mugen when they left us alone
but im saying "FINE" now
n i told myself "i will climb over both of ur lvl"

thanks for Sue Teng also
coz she was the person to stop me on changing this idea
coz i told her tat tis idea of design hard to make it in modeling
but she said not to think such thinking
at the end i was continuing this idea till now
and i succeed

through tis final project
i seriously can see who is ur truth frenz n who is not
when i saw who is tat person i was juz keep silent

anyway
next tues got another review which is external
need to upgrade my boards also
as i said
Proud to be chosen, but hate to be reviewed
sian
good luck

cry

2009-04-24T01:09:00.002+08:00

who said guys cannot cry?
lol
actually guys also a human
guys also got feeling
we also will feeling sad

juz now make me recalled back an incident
bout my best frenz
i think it was our 20years old
tat time i having some prob wif my parents
den tat time he was talking to them when i was bathing
den i heard that he agreed wif wat my parents said about me

tat time i was damn angry
when i came out from bath
we followed our plan to go out
during the car
watever he talked to me
i was juz acting hear nth
den so sudden
he shouted
"STOP the car NOW!"
i still continue to drive
den he pulled up my hand brake
den the whole car was stopped so sudden

den he keeps asking wth i angry on him
den we keep arguing
till he cried..n i also cried
even we cried but we still comment wat's our fault
some of the ppl will think tat tis action is kinda of stupid
but tats the way we communicate n share our probs

too bad he was no longer anymore
even now i was stress i was sad
i dunno who i suppose to look for
and even i think to cry and hide into my room
there r too much probs happened to me now

ever to decide not to continue for education even if i passed tis sem
may i know wat suppose i should do, Nicholas?
cry?

seiyuu

2009-04-14T21:32:00.002+08:00

those who didnt watch anime
they might dunno wat is seiyuu

seiyuu actually is a japanese word
which mean vocal
vocal is the person who give the voice to the char in anime

i seriously feel proud to them
1 person can voiced diff kinds of voice
even some gal vocal can voiced male char's voice in anime

ok
maybe some of the person will look down on them
but ever think that japan government ever organized a prizes ceremony for vocals?
they even have the website for monthly or annual top 10 seiyuu
somehow of companies will hold a concert for them
oh ya
some of the vocals ever sang some nice songs such as their anime op and ed songs

nowsaday they are several new talent of youth seiyuus
although their exp not as much as their senior seiyuu
but they still can voice a quality + incredible voices

compare to here...
the voice r sux
even cantonese, chinese n english vocal also lose to japanese vocal

i love japanese seiyuu ^^

复杂的感觉

2009-04-10T17:13:00.002+08:00

今天的感觉很复杂

昨天她都开口问我要不要去PC Fair
我竟然会回答不知道
也许当天我只想着在家休息

但我都告诉她
如果她想去
我可以陪她假设她不介意
之后话题就转变其他了

就这样
本来就不理会那么多
跟前辈吃了午餐
打算回家休息
怎知道
她短讯我问我要不要去PC Fair
当然这是第二次同样问题
我已经逃避不了
就回答随便,都可以

怎知道
在我家哈啦一阵子
她很突然地说不想去了
也许她觉得只是我和她单独
却没有其他女生的陪伴
就决定不想去了
结果我们和屋友一起去观看电影

目前我只有两个感觉
我很伤感
原因是我无法和她单独出去
同时我也很开心
因为我不必再消耗体力

刚刚
她要去洗车
也不知道为何我不会主动去陪她
大概明白自己有一点累了
也不明白自己为何今天好像没什么心情那样

我没用我知道
我胆小我知道
我找不到时机
我找不到机会
我找不到希望
我只知道失败

这就是今天我的感觉

the past

2009-04-09T21:13:00.002+08:00

juz now
when i saw 1 of my housemate cried
i tot she cried coz of other important things
but didnt aspect it was about her relationship wif her bf
after tat
i still nagged her that juz cried coz of tis small case thing

after tat
when i came back home
suddenly feel wanna to listen 1 chinese song
named as I wanna be with you and sang by Xu Jie Er
tis song is very sweet and gave me a lot of sweet memories in the past

well
i calculated juz now
it was been 3 years d
but when i listened this song
i will rmb the past when i was still together wif her
my tears almost drop from my eyes ><
[so i shouldn't blame my housemate =X ]

it was d a past or should said it was a past memories
it was past for 3 years time d
n she also having a bf now
now we r still treating each other as frenz
sometime also skype to each other
juz somekind of solve my bored for chatting wif her

yet
im still like tis song
but i will not listen it longer
juz scare i will feel sad -.-
tats y now i quite boycott chinese song
n focus on japanese songs

I wanna be with you ^^

heartless

2009-04-08T00:39:00.002+08:00

ever i organized the club meeting till now
today the meeting was the worse compare to last time
5 committees + 2 members
there was less than 10 person attended the meeting

worse but i can see who actually is true frenz n who is actually got heart on tis club
seriously and seriously
i feel wanna to thank to one of my senior
i feel very touching
coz he is the only 1 senior who willing to give me a lot of his hands
he supports me n also helps me a lot
i can see a lot of efforts from him
if can i feel wanna to reward him as Best Committee for tis club
so today meeting he was 1 of them to attend for it

where is others?
i dunno
some said no internet cannot check email
but now internet ok d..last min told me he dunno got meeting today
others?
assignments, class, projects blabla
actually all these excuses were listened since i formed this club
so i wont bother too much

once tmr retired meeting have decide who will be the next committees
den i will retired n to be an advisor for them
after tat i will not care bout it anymore
everything will decided by them
up to them as if they want to disband the club
y i looks heartless?
coz i d done my job or my part
if want to do for the sake of others
i will say "sorry"

next sem i will have certain class same wif my junior
i not happy but stress
coz as a senior
we cant lose to our juniors
so i want to focus my studies as tis sem my result r sux
jy den

Earth Hour

2009-03-29T02:05:00.002+08:00

28 March 2009
was an Earth Hour
which was all the ppl have to switch off the electricity for an hour

but actually
there are several ppl misunderstood the meaning of Earth hour
to switch off the electricity not only during that day but everyday

the purpose of organized Earth Hour event not only to ask us to switch off electricity for an hour
but to remind us to switch off the electricity whenever we do not use it

there are still many ppl switch off the electricity after used or do not use anymore
of course including me also =X
but usually i didn't switch off my computer when i was downloading something =X

last but not least
Earth Hour is not only on 28 March 2009
but also everyday, every minute or even every seconds
switch off the electricity after used
then only we can save our Earth

stop it

2009-03-26T19:06:00.002+08:00

i feel very depressed
i seriously feel very upset

do anyone know?

honestly
i feel wanna to stop studying this course already
i think even we have the interest or hardworking on something
but without the talent or smart brain
at the end u still fail

to be honest again
i was failed 2 midterm exams at this semester
History exam and Practice exam

History exam
i ever studied properly for it
even the MCQ i knew i answered quite ok
short answer part
some of the question i do not know how to answer
but at least i knew some confirm answer on certain question
essay part
i knew that 2nd question i do not know but at least i answered something
question no 1 i answered wrong question even though i thought i answered correctly during exam
even i wrong but still at least got some mark
but i do not even understand why i can still failed?
i very speechless to that

Practice exam
since Bunkasai was holding at the same day with this exam
i did not have time to study as i busy for this event
maybe i cannot take this as an excuse since they are 2 Bunkasai committees still can passed the exam but i couldn't
it can be concluded that i'm a failure and i'm stupid
why people still can get at least 50 but i can't?
we are busy the same things but the result we got are totally different

honestly
from the first time i studied this course from foundation till degree now
i seriously do not find anyone willing to have a group study with me
i forced myself to solo even if i prefer to study group
the only housemate who is the same batch with me but she prefer to memorize as her study method
too bad i cannot since i have the bad memorizing and stupid brain
so far i only found someone which is my senior to come over here to study for exam
but only 2 subjects r the same

well
think this course seriously not suitable for me
i weak in sketching
i weak in coloring
i weak in theory
i weak in modeling
i weak in creative design
i think i should stop this course already
since in the class i just like their junior
also like my junior's junior
we have a big gap
i just like level 1 student but they are level 10 students

sorry to tell you all that
i feel wanna to give up already
i weak in history and theories subjects
even i continue till end of this semester
i do not think that i still can go through for next semester

yes
i very negative thinking
because i very very upset
i do not find any comfort from my friends
SERIOUSLY
i should start to work rather on wasting the time on study for failing

yeah
i should stop it immediately

serious

2009-03-25T20:56:00.002+08:00

tis sem
i think i lack of SERIOUS on my studies
tats y i was facing a lot of failure on my assignments n exam

except the Bunkasai event
the rest of my group assignments, exam n individual assignment
i never do it properly or serious

tats not only lack of serious
i was like playing the fool wif my life
keep thinking of love
keep thinking on money money
and also keep thinking bout enjoy

ok FINE
think should get back my performance d
want to be more serious d
yet settle out all my probs b4 proceed to next thing

earning money is a part of my life right now
coz i cant over depend on my parents anymore
although the income is lesser but at least it could help me little by little
hopefully tis money not only can help on my assignments
but also could help my sem trip for genting during coming sem break
coz i was lack of enjoy tis sem ><

anyway
serious!!!!

Badminton

2009-03-22T01:56:00.002+08:00

woah!
3 months + never play badminton d
so today i was played badminton together wif mugen, gracia, suew yeng n her frenz

i was very noob
coz i cant hit the shuttlecock accurate at all
it seems like my skill was decreasing
either i hit the shuttlecock to wrong way
maybe tat time i still cant get back the feeling

it was lucky that she not there
or else i was so shame there ><

it's bee long times didnt do exercise d
i hope tmr i still can walk or jump or drive
coz tmr i have to fetch ppl n go ACGC
but seriously
it was a good release stress day
but no chance to play double match since no ppl want to
anyway
feel wanna go back Malacca to play lol

finally

2009-03-20T23:49:00.002+08:00

oh yeah
after today presentation
i was like throw away another 1 stone
means that i was release another stress

to be honest
after the Bunkasai
i was never enjoy anything at all
even i never watch movie since Jan was my last time to watch

the following week after the Bunkasai
i was having 2 tests during that week and 1 crit
the following week again we had 2 assignments submission as well as presentation
thanks GOD after the presentation.. like i can jump 10m high lvl

ok
basically ytd i quite happy
coz of my design
i tot my design would get rejected
coz it was some kind of complicated and our lecturer not really a rough furnishes
but who knows
during the tutorial, i juz said
"tis is my plan, n from outlook tats my form"
he direct said
"ok, proceeded.. go to the next stage"
i was like unbelievable
coz it took less than 2mins he answered me and less than 10mins for tutorial
coz the rest of ppl was spent at least 10min+ to tutorial

today finished the presentation
i was like less 1 burden from my life
yet i was facing financial prob
but i now doing the part time job
1st thing that i want to buy is my shoe
it was broke till i have to use super glue to stick it ><
haiz hardship life

better i work harder for earn some income during this coming holiday
i want to buy my own yukata
i want to buy my coloring materials
i want to buy my badminton shoes
aim for tis few targets 1st
coz my income not much

anyway good luck to me on xxx lol
so far the progress is some how slow ><
hopefully there will be miracle happen ><

post moterm

2009-03-15T17:23:00.002+08:00

last 2 days
it was our Bunkasai post moterm

the whole meeting was took 2 hrs +
but juz to make some apologizes
i talked too much during the post moterm
i hurt many ppl during the post moterm

if any1 feel not satisfy wif wat i said
can voice out anytime

that's the things that i alwiz said

there were a lot of mistakes happened
however
u guys still did a good job during the event
seriously give a applause to urself

anyway
i still feel a bit regret for not enjoy the event booth during that night
because i was bz on serve the VIP + Ms Lee was in hall
as the club president must stay around the hall
even no time to take photo with some of the committees
especially her
juz feel a bit too bad for myself

no matter how
this was a experience + memories that AniMaC can gave us
thanks everyone

crazy

2009-03-15T16:55:00.003+08:00

*this blog's content contains some crazy stuff
if u r below 18 years old
please read this wif any adult there

ytd
went to release the stress after finished the site

me, leong and gracia went to Mugen's house
coz wanna asked him to join us for going Leisure Mall

sometime i think that when ur house got a pet
u wont be so boring
at least can play wif it
suddenly miss Kookie T.T
*i did my promise to her which gave her a cat as present

we went to Leisure Mall
for wat?
of coz went to the Arcade
RELEASE our STRESS!!
punch the puncher!!
play the table tennis
wif my stress..2 rounds i also won!!!!
*im going to crazy d

but more crazy things we were going to do
tats we go play the bang bang car
haha
feel funny
the were 4 kids driving the bang bang car
together wif 3 of us, me, mugen and leong
can imagine the crazy situation?????
i want to laugh when refresh back

crazy hrs was ended
both of them back
but i still feel like got a few things i havent done yet
i need to cheer up
plz dun let the thing to influence me
dun keep sad
dun keep worry

tell urself
"Yes, I can do it"

Bunkasai

2009-03-06T21:48:00.002+08:00

our very 1st event in AniMaC finally successfully organized
when we see the event open ceremony and closing ceremony
it give me a feel to wanna cry
seriously i almost cry
coz it is our 1st event and such big event in our University

for skool
they are very satisfy wif our event
coz it was very grand
somemore it is a Japanese Culture event

i sincerely thanks to all the committees whoever put a lot of efforts on tis event
and those manpower who helped on our event
as well as those visitors to come over our event
arigato gozaimasu

yet
when i read some of the forum
our event was such failure compare to other event
ok
i dun mind they give any negative comment to us
but plz do not criticize any of our committees and the name of event
some of them was sacrifice their bloods and sweats
also do not spoilt our tougher thinking of our event's name

it is not i do not want to accept their comment
i accepted but it is not like other trying to ejek us
no matter how is the event failure
but at least plz comment nicely to us
wif some politely words
but noy directly ejek my committees
soli to say tat
as a club president
i have a right to protect them

anyway
thanks for every1

ended the life

2009-03-02T00:41:00.002+08:00

recently feel stress and disappoint
something like pop out to me
when problems come to me
i will lost myself

seriously
i can't find any one to share my problem
why i cannot find????
where are you???
can some one just say "我让你依靠"

i seriously worry about the event
i even worried till i am going to sick
i cannot fall down 1st
i still got many things haven't done

can anyone help me to solve my problems
i do not want exam
....
....

seriously feel wanna end up of my life
loveless of life
careless of life
sadness of life
hopeless of life

even she also do not want to care me
seems like we have some miscommunication already
seems like no more hope

sorry
i very negative thinking
that is what i am
i am going to rest in peace

bye

die together

2009-02-28T18:42:00.002+08:00

yes
feel happy

the event..many things still in pending
a lot of things still not yet done

good

let's die together
if this event got any failure happen
not only the event manager n club president get influence
but also all the head of departments will get influence

next time our testimonial will have sth "special"
go interview
ppl saw "bunkasai night"
direct kick u out from their company

syok or not
never done ur thing probably?
go play? good
go lo..i dun mind 1
juz die together

ytd attended the meeting
unsolved problems only like that????
there are still many unsolved
i looking fwd the performance will fail serious
since the performance still not fix..here in here out

all the best
let's see the failure of Bunkasai
1st time event in Malaysia
also 1st time event fail in Malaysia

problems

2009-02-22T22:54:00.002+08:00

this few days
i was seriously very bad mood
i very moody, sad, fed up and disappointed
seriously i also cried out
i too stress already

now
i really honestly want to say out a words
"I FEEL REGRET TO FORM THIS CLUB!!!!"

the problems seems like no ending
there is no fullstop at the end

i seriously hope everyone of my housemates could understand my situation now
sometime maybe i treated you all very fierce or showing a bad respond
but to be honest
i very stress
some one trying to destroy the whole event
im fighting with the person
i no support
i no armor to fight

from this event
i could see most of the people was suffering
i know
to lead a team not easy
that's why sometime if people do not want to give commitment to me
that's how my feel

problems
once i solved a problem
another problem come again
i trying to stop the problem to come again
but still fail

event just left less than 10 days
i very scare
because there are still many things we haven't done yet
many things still pending
the leader also sleeping there
i very very scare
you all still can go out play or singapore or watever
but i really scare
many things are still in pending progress

i do not think that i am a good president
when one of my committee called me
he told me for our whole event's problems
then i like wanna to give up everything already
i never really concern everything
i no experience
or else all the problems will not exist

sorry to tell both of my grandchild
sorry to let both of see a weak grandpa
im not a good grandpa
im trying to protect you all
but couldn't

the whole event progress's failure is my fault
to delay all the group assignment is my fault
to ignore my friendship is my fault
please allow me to use a gun and shoot myself

thanks

trying my best

2009-02-15T17:16:00.002+08:00

you are the person that i very worry
you are the person that i very care
you are the person that i want to talk to
you are the person that closer to me
you are the person that very important to me
you are the person that i love very much

since 1 month ago
you dropped into the darkness
that is a devil keep pulling you into his darkness world
i was trying to save you since earlier
i be your knight to fight with him
i be your shield to defend his "attack"
i be your armor to protect whatever people to attack on you

but
you never think on saving yourself
you never think on people who saved you
you never think on the way to protect yourself
you are trying to find an excuse to run away

no matter how professional of me
no matter how strong of my defend
i also cannot protect you if you are trying to run away

please
can you turn back to the person that i knew?
can you turn back to the kindness junior?
can you do not give me any worries on you?
can you share out your problems with me?
can you tell me everything on you?
can you tell me anything happened on you?

give me a chance to protect you please
i am trying my best to save you NOW

firework

2009-02-13T22:42:00.002+08:00

our happiness
just like a firework
when it explode
it is very beautiful
but it is just a few seconds

means
once our happiness gone
nothing can be return anymore
but only can keep it in our memory

so
our happiness
it is only existed for a while
but now it is only a memory

too bad
i cannot save this memory anymore
it gonna to be delete soon

Fckr

2009-02-11T21:18:00.002+08:00

seriously
i feel fucking dulan now

im seriously feel wanna to return to foundation sem 2
y?
i feel regret of creating this club
or maybe i feel regret when organizing this event

tis sucking project manager
i feel wanna give him a lot of punches
i event feel wanna to kill him

project manager
position higher than president?
project manager is the 1 to order club president to do tis n tat?
"club adviser" is juz used as an excuse for kicking 1 person out of the committee
but for tis fucker
he forgot everything
he tot "club adviser" is existing
he tot that "club adviser" is project manager's downline
he tot that "club adviser" is project manager's personal secretary
he tot that "club adviser" is project manager's special communicator
he tot that "club adviser" is also a project manager

wat the fuck
i tot tis event will handed by him wif nicely w/o prob
wtf
at the end i still need to worry tis n tat
wif his damn fucking stupid lansi brain
giving us so much trouble

can u fucking out from my eyes if can
i damn disappoint to him
if kill ppl is not an illegal things
i feel wanna to kill him 1st den

---------------------------------------------------------------

i dam panic now
i got some prob wif my life now
seriously feel wanna to cry
i very stress
i lack of caring
i loveless
can i dun care all those trouble things?
i feel wanna take a nap den.....
let me sleep a year...
slap me plz
or kill me plz...

CNY shopping

2009-01-22T00:48:00.002+08:00

finally i did my CNY shopping d
suppose to shop earlier
but i got my own salary lately
so everything was delaying till today

i bought all shirts w/o shoe and pants
coz i still got rm200+ salary didnt get yet
but i think to buy a badminton shoe and dye my hair color lol
but den i still think of doing my passport
coz our lecturer forced us to go SG during non contact week
for assignment purpose
haiz

anyway
today shop till siao
and quite ok
coz the money was earned by myself
so i juz like using my own money to buy sth tat i need
rather than i using my parents' money
it likes wasting my parents money
also if i used their money to buy all those things
sure will get scolded or nagged
haha
those who knows me well
they knew tat my background is diff wif others
tats y i rarely shopping
not i dunwan to shop
but is i cant

anyway
wish all my buddies happy cny advanced

thanks buddies

2009-01-20T00:37:00.002+08:00

tis year bday was my great bday among of my life
1stly
there were 2 celebrations in tis bday
2ndly
i was received many gift
3rdly
those gift was very expensive T.T

thanks to all my buddies and housemates
there are 3 gift i was received in tis year bday
1st was a monkey doll from AniMaC committees
2nd was a spec from my housemates n buddy
3rd was a table fan from my coursemates

thanks a lot
those gift cost a lot
i sincerely feel thankful to u all
i feel touching =]
thanks

new sem start

2009-01-10T12:24:00.002+08:00

new sem was started
the 1st day we d got 1 assignment
1st week
we also got 1 lecture, assignment and also 1 submission
degree year 2 .....
seems really very tough
6 subjects per sem
feel wanna going to dead

got few classes we r going to combine wif our senior's class
sounds weird
when combined wif our senior
feel like a big stress
mean our project must do better also
or else it like got a big gap between us n them
scare le -.-

anyway
tis sem's timetable is very sux
sux till the class on got during afternoon but morning no class
we juz like stuck on half way there

haiz
god bless us den -.-

kindergarten kids

2009-01-04T18:16:00.003+08:00

ya
it's almost end my kindergarten teaching life
wat i taught in the kindergarten center is drawing and coloring
of coz
i'm juz an assistant of my frenz
coz tis job is a long term job
when skool started i will be bz
tats y i cant hold the position as a head of teacher to teach them

actually it still have a lot of students
but too bad i was missed for a few of their last class
so i only have a few of student's pic here

tis student is quite hard to teach
coz he is sth like "living in their own world"
tis kind of disease most probably was influenced by parents

lol
tis fella cute..
i alwiz bully him XD

ytd i was in charged of teaching him to color
cute le lol

the blue shirt kid's sis
very silent
maybe she was shy -.-

tis is not our student
but 1 of our student's sis
she juz came to accompany her bros

tats 1 of her bro
he still got another eldest bro
but he was absent tat day
his bro quite handsome
i called him as little handsome lol

they r cute rite? lol
but seriously
it is hard to control and teach the kids here
my 1st exp to teach the kids anyway lol

Lonely life

2009-01-03T20:57:00.001+08:00

within these 2 months
i think i used to it to be alone
wat i mean is i d normal wif living alone

yeah
it's true tat nov i still got 1 housemate to stay at kl wif me
but yet she alwiz left the house most of the times
so at the end i still live alone

lucky i still work some part time
but every dinner time was my boring time
haiz

anyway
today maybe is my last day to work as the kindergarten teacher
hmm
soon i will upload my cute students lol
but not all the students i have took their pic
anyway
next mon will start our new sem
n it will be a new bz, hardship and stressful sem again
good luck den

Welcoming new year 2009

2008-12-26T17:08:00.002+08:00

less than a week
new year 2009 is coming soon

juz to flash back wat i did during year 2008
any wishes tat come truth on tis year?
i think yes
coz i got a wish was wishing all my frenz n parents having a healthy year
but yet
it's still happened some sad things
and compare to last year
i was dropping the tears a lot for tis year
and also im having many headache stuff to think

seriously
year 2007 and 2008
i really dun like them
tis is the 1st year tat i never have a chinese new year, my bday wif my best frenz
coz of him..i learned about how to appreciate frenz which is surrounding us

haiz
izzit possible there will be a good year for me?
im single for almost 3 years d lol
be honest i quite bored of it
really hope next year will be a good year den

omenetto gozaimasu!!!!

xmas gift

2008-12-19T11:17:00.000+08:00

xmas gift
i'm sure every1 wish to get a xmas gift for themselves
no matter tat person is a kids
no matter tat person is a teenager
no matter tat person is a adult
they will still wish to get a xmas gift

some ppl treat it not exactly a gift
but a wish
1 of them is me
b4 i graduated from secondary skool
i will never think anything "xmas gift" during xmas

but
when i finished my education for SPM
during i having my car license
it's very exactly on the same day i having my test which is xmas
of coz
i wished to myself that if i passed this test tats considered as my xmas gift for that year
well at the end i was passed it

after the following year
my xmas gift was juz passed my university final exam
after tat i will never ask for anything

this year
to be honest
i seriously having a wish
juz tat this wish is really hard to come true
and to be honest again
i feel like do not want any single life anymore
i quite bored of it

i'm sure some of u might be laughing at me when u read tis
but yes
i wish to get a love partner to be with me forever
yet it's hard

"kimi o aishiteru
watashi wa anata hontoni suki desu
demo
ima wa yapadi dame
hontoni dame
dakara watashi no kokoro nakigoe desu
gomen ne..."

over relax

2008-11-25T16:55:00.000+08:00

after i stopped sushi king
den i was living a relax life
but of coz i still got looking for job

i got a job now
which started on tis sat
at KL pavilion and work as promoter
juz feel very inconvenient of transportation only
else might be better

juz now i was getting the call from anime translator
but i dunno how to go Taman Pandan Perdana
F5

tis few days
i started to play back maple
coz the new job was launched
n quite fun
it seems like a year i didnt play as fun as now
but it almost attracted on the games
not really good
of coz i still got some outing entertaiment
especially watching movie
within tis month i watched so many movies
so scary

anyway
wish my result can going next sem
very scare rite now ><

Proposal + Arcade

2008-11-13T20:20:00.000+08:00

these 2 days
we were doing the proposal
actually it's not doing the proposal
juz we have to go Student Council office to discuss sth related on our event
coz b4 tat Student Council president asked to combine this event wif other club
so ytd we went to there
unfortunately she was not there
wasted our times to go there
after tat
we went to leisure mall since Andrew decided to buy present gift
since we were nth to do there
Sue Teng said want to go arcade and play
so we went to Arcade and played
lol
played the table ping pong, Daytona, basketball and photo hunt
after tat chit chat at starbuck den went back

today morning also woke up earlier
11am went to Student Council office since we made an appointment d
wow
juz spent for 15mins
our discussion ended
she approved us and follow our plan to do our event
so our committee now can start to do their own job d
after tat take our lunch at Fuk Sing
but raining so we have to stay back for a while n chit chat
when the rain was stopped
den Sue Teng and Andrew went back
but i continued my next journey
we went to watch james bond movie wif mugen, eric, alex, jays n suew yeng
ok la
consider not bad
although some of the storyline i not understand coz i didnt watch james bond b4
but overall ok
sth like Jackie Chan
but he didnt as cruel as James Bond
den we went to arcade again
lol

tis sat will start my new job d
from 15 Nov to 7 Dec
lol
good luck to me den ^^

fail on watching movie

2008-11-10T02:39:00.000+08:00

ytd we planned to watch movie
i mean me, huihui and sue teng
aiya
my mistake
is a rare chance we can ask sue teng outing during nite time
but den i didnt aspect tats so many ppl watch Madagascar tis movie
so when we arrived Balakong jusco TGV cinema
the ticket was finish sold out
want to watch James Bond
but left front seats
so at the end we canceled
my fault ><

after tat we went to walk around
suddenly we saw a machine
tat machine was testing how many power u r
we feel curious on it
so we inserted the coin and played
20cent only
there is a lot of power lights
but i left 1 den perfect
huihui reached normal gal power light
but sue teng quite high
although not my lvl but consider very power
no wonder alwiz watched Powerpuff Girl lol XD

den Sue Teng suggested to nyam cha
so we went to Starbuck nyam cha
there was my 1st time to enter Starbuck
as u know there is a expensive coffee shop
so we went there drink coffee while chit chat
till 12am we left from Starbuck

we went in to the Jusco
coz i looking for toilet
so i borrowed the toilet from Green Box
when i out from toilet
i saw they playing the ps game which is provided by Green Box
so i also joined them and play
lol
we played dunno wat vs fighting game
we played for 30mins long there
haha

after tat we went home
1st time Sue Teng went out till tat late
but den it's too bad we cant watch the movie
feel like beh song
feel wanna ask and watch again

looking part time

2008-11-08T19:32:00.000+08:00

after i quited the sushi king
den this few days i keep looking for new part time job

wed i went to leisure mall, giant and econsave wif mugen
leisure mall we only filled the form for 1 shop
it is a computer shop
but i think they dunwan us ba

den giant we saw a book fair
den we written out our information
but till now not yet get any call
think also failure d

econsave need a lot of cashier
but i not really cashier
coz need to handle a big responsibility to take care the cash
any cash lost need to responsible on it
so didnt ask for it

the next day
went to mid valley look for it
but i not really wish to work in mid valley
coz everyday need to take KTM to there
unless the paid very high

tat day we used sms to sms the maxis roadshow
me, huihui, mugen n jays sent it
after tat huihui got the replies n asked to work
after tat jays n den mugen
den i tot i was lose on selected to work there
coz since quite long no replies yet
den i planned to sms to tat fella
who knows i got the msg n ask to work lol
so me, mugen n jays will work next sat, sun n mon

ytd we went to new way nearby interview 1 company
b4 tat mugen said his frenz told him tat tis company looking for book fair
even other ppl read the newspaper was written bookfair
when we filling the form
we feel strange to the form
coz the form keep asking all the question bout computer icon
after tat
during interview
only i realize tat they r looking for sales on PDA dictionary
i swt tat time
the pay also less
if high i think i will consider bout it

anyway
still looking for part timer
every interview also no news yet
haiz

damn

2008-11-04T18:33:00.000+08:00

ok
i worked at sushi king for 5 days including today
n today i quited

y?
i damn hate the management there

1st
i was applied a waiter there
1st day i came
they arranged me in kaiten to work
nvm
i can learn how to make sushi
but then no one came to guide me wat to do
it's worse

2nd days
some1 asked me to help in kitchen
help wat?
wash dishes -.-
after break
again asked me to help on washing dishes
fine

3rd days
the new manager asked me work in kitchen
then i felt weird
den i juz go to kitchen
some1 teach me how to cut the skinny cucumber
after tat nth to do
they asked me wash dishes AGAIN
den i washed lo
even after break i still washing dishes
so i washed till the shop closed
during the shop closing
1 lame malay guy keep pointing me to do here n there
it's looks like i dun have anything to do
i still got so many plates n cups need to wash
he rushing to go back den come n ordered ppl to help him
so at the end i finished till 12am+ only go back

4th day was the best
coz i entered the kaiten silently
coz no 1 know i suppose to work in kitchen
so during tat day i learned many sushi stuff
very happy

5th day
tats mean today
bout 2pm sth
i been caught by the new manager
she asked me go back kitchen to help put
damn
i tried to explain to her tat i dun like to work there
but she keeps saying try to learn in kitchen
tat time i almost frustrated n planned to throw the handglove on her face d
suppose i planned to work till 8pm today
den after tat planned to work till 6pm
in kitchen
i juz learn a cawan mersin dunno blabla food only
den the head of kitchen said
"kalau tak ada order, tolong cuci pinggan"
damn lo
at the end i went back to kitchen juz to learn how to wash dishes?

after that i direct planned to go back after break
den tmr will send a resign letter to them
i hate man
it's totally diff wif the promoter i worked last time
bad management
the lame sushi king
i wont eat there anymore
the plates was so dirty
dirty environment
stupid manager

tmr i look for a new job
damn

bad..

2008-10-31T01:37:00.000+08:00

finally i back to KL
went though this few days
i really rest enuff for my holiday
and also enjoy the badminton too

my life in Melaka mostly on anime watching and playing badminton
but den juz 1 day going out to lim teh wif my 1 frenz only
den spend 1 afternoon to go n do my maybank stuff
n coz of maybank
i left my IC there
damn it
so i hope i will be ok in sushi king n kl life within this few days w/o IC ><

really played more enuff for badminton
Sat play wif my own kaki except tat mangkuk
mon my dad asked me to join since they lack of kaki
wed played wif tat mangkuk n his own frenz
so finally i feel back the "badminton feel"
but my skill seriously decrease -.-

tmr will start my 1 month part time work
hope i can normal wif the working area n lifestyle
also hope it might be ok if w/o IC
god bless me T.T

bored?

2008-10-24T01:19:00.000+08:00

starting tmr i will go back to Mlk
till next thurs back to KL and work part time

tis morning
my 3 housemates started their traveling journey
den we juz submitted our portfolio
although we submitted
but i still dun feel very happy mood
quite weird
maybe i quite worry bout my result
seriously tis sem i did worse
hope tis sem can pass all
izzit ?

afternoon i cleaned my damn messy room and living room
now my room become neat and clean
become more space d
the living room also more neater
else later my housemates will scold me lol

well
juz borrowed some anime from neko chan
go back Mlk is resting time
lol
i quite diff wif others
i dun feel wanna go back Mlk
feel a bit lazy, tire and bored

i saw my housemates went to SG
quite a bit jealous
they some more planned to go Beijing end of next year
they invited me
but i dun think i can make it
lol
those who understand me well know wat's the reason
but den KS said end of next year we travel to nearest place
either SG, Indo or Thai

ok la
tmr go back Mlk
might not touch my tis pc d
i will see my tis house again on next week
God bless everything are going well
thanks

Good Bye

a week..

2008-10-20T19:22:00.000+08:00

it's been a week i didnt online d
coz last wed my modem was shot by thunder
so my modem and router was spoil together
cool huh

last tues we were ended our year 1 sem 2 presentation
ok
for my presentation
i totally speechless
ok.. i know my design quite sux
but during the tutorial or crit presentation by Ms Baizura
everything was going well
her comments were good and good
but who knows during the final presentation the lecturers who reviewed me dun like my design
they said very complicated and not suitable for my design
haiz
it's quite sad after that review day
but wat to do since everything was past
diff lecturer come out the diff things
blame to who i seriously also dunno

but den today i saw my junior's presentation
they did very well
juz some of them
especially wei shen and neko chan
both of them did their design according to lecturer
but at the end no 1 like it
same to my play structure during last sem
at the end a lot of "bullets" keep shooting me
haiz

so i think i should change my style d
the style which remain to me now "finish homework asap"
should change it to "make it perfect"
yup
"make it perfect"
even the times i left still got few min or few sec i also need to appreciate it as touch out

anyway
last wed was bad luck
coz my router and model got shot by thunder
somemore some of our cables also kena shot
so we have to spend money to buy a new model router -.-

so this thurs will be our last submission day for our sem 2 portfolio
den will be our "merdeka" day d
of coz not for relaxing
i will go back to melaka tis week
b4 nov come back here to work part time
den dec i will spend my times to learn photoshop, coloring and sketches
as well as to plan my club especially bunkasai

ok
can enjoy the times now

happy bday ah huihui

2008-10-13T19:52:00.000+08:00

happy bday to huihui
ytd we went to GasOnline to celebrate her bday
well
it's consider my suffer day too
lol

b4 we started to go GasOnline
i drank a cup of coffee
when arrived there
i order an cappuccino
during tat time
suddenly i getting flu
n the purpose i drank the coffee is coz i was suddenly feel tire

den went back to go bed
b4 tat took a medicine for flu
so i tot if i took the medicine i surely will feel sleepy
and sleep very well
unfortunately i am sleepless
omg
the coffee power was over strong
till i cant sleep
till 5 sth i slept
but woke up on 7am -.-
omg ><

den somemore today we need to rdy the review day presentation for tmr
quite scare
coz my board looks simple
i see others..
they did well
haiz
God Bless me T.T

juz now nap for 2hrs
feel better now d
plz dun sick b4 i submitted everything yet

phew..

2008-10-12T00:51:00.000+08:00

phew
2 weeks of bz days
2 days of exam revision
a week of assignment rushing
finally i done it
although we still left 1 more assignment
but den at least we done the design
den everything will be fine i think
but still think of my design bit simple
hopefully got tis words
"simple is the best" -.-

during my bz days
i somemore got flu ><
but neko chan sick -.-
tis few weeks were raining day
so will get cold easily

juz now went to relax a while
we went to have dinner at Sushi King
1st time to eat sushi together wif my 2 hoursemates
they ate quite less compare to me n cicak lol
after tat watched movie
the Butterfly Love
a luv movie but we still can watch till laugh
somemore not really sad
juz feel bit weird for tis movie
the ending also bit weird -.-

next tues will be our review day
quite scary
coz gonna to present to none of our design lecturers
tats architect's life > <

stress

2008-10-08T03:56:00.000+08:00

i feel stress rite now
assignment like cant finish
like a lot of things need to edit or add on
quite hate of it
now very late d
sleep 1st ...

assignment and exam week

2008-10-06T21:52:00.000+08:00

this week is a busiest week for architecture students
y?
coz this week is our exam week and also assignment week
"thanks" to our skool which is arranged the timetable till so "nice"

fri we got history final exam
i not yet study
dun feel wanna study -.-
coz still got assignment need to do
our design assignment is very important
coz next mon need to pin up in class
den tues got internal presentation d
mean within this week we need to finish out our assignment d

bang
fri still got exam
wed need to study d
else tis subject sure fail

model almost done
but presentation boards....
long way to go
also need to thank to our "best" lecturer
"good" arrangement and "good" brief for us
at the end all of us still blurring wat to do for our presentation
so most of us stuck d

anyway
coz of them we have to slow down our assignment speed
omg
autoCAD and tech 2 havent finish also -.-
going to die soon ><

happy birthday cak

2008-10-03T01:58:00.000+08:00

happy birthday cak lol

surprise when we arrived ur house rite? lol
we planned d
well for the present
i hope u like it
b4 tat i planned to buy another thing
but hehe
unfortunately i was in finance prob
so tis year i tried my best d
hope u really like it
the reason i bought tat for u
is coz of i alwiz wanna borrow ur pendrive
den ur pendrive was borrowed to ur frenz
so i think u also blame ur frenz if i not mistaken o.O
so plz dun blame ur frenz anymore
this pendrive is for u
it will follow u forever lo
lol

btw juz now when we wanna left from seremban
song and i saw it wave the hand like wanna stop any car for "tumpang"
(i dunno it is a old lady or old man, so i use "it")
at this dark environment
it wave the hand juz like... hmm..
the rest didnt saw it
only me n song
coz i said "yer!"
den song's respond on "hehe" laugh
so i'm sure he saw it too

anyway
19 years old d
my lovely cak grown up again
so wish u have a nice bday and 19 years old too ^^
stay dude ^^

almost sick

2008-10-01T01:19:00.000+08:00

ytd almost get sick
i think coz influenced by cicak
but luckily ytd slept earlier
so today feel more healthy

recently quite many ppl sick
also related on weather
so must drink more water

i will not make myself feel tire or sick b4 end my all assignments
but then i a bit worry bout my club
although the coming event i cant touch too much
but still feel worry bout it
haiz

over relax

2008-09-28T23:13:00.000+08:00

today went out for the whole day
went for ACGC again
lol
coz we want to see the cosplay event
n find the sponsorship
but failed -.-

we enjoy the cosplay
but den i bit dun understand bout the cosplayer performance
it's too deep till we dun even understand wat r they going to perform
den when prizes giving
the 1st prize is wii leh
walao..
so nice
when think bout the wii lol
i miss tat wii promoter gal lol
she is so leng lui =X

after tat met huihui den we went to watch movie
Painted Skin
not so nice
more on love stuff
n also bout 3rd party -.-

so juz went back from outing
wow
i didnt do my assignment yet le
okok
tis week going to start my work
nono
suppose to finish up the whole things
no more playing
jyjy!!!!!

lucky day

2008-09-28T01:09:00.000+08:00

today went to ACGC at midvalley
i bought a lot of things
but i didnt buy my toushirou =[
got certain reason -.-

den very lucky today
b4 we went for tea time
we got filled up the lucky draw form
5pm was the lucky draw event
got free gift LG hp
the MC announced 5 - 6 person's name
but they didnt come out
who knows the last name was me
lol
i didnt aspect i got it lol
really shock
so i gave the hp to cicak
she needed it since long times ago ^^

anyway it's lucky day but bit sad -.-
haha
it's ok
times will help me ^^

future president?

2008-09-26T21:39:00.000+08:00

i was wondering
on next year
who suppose to be the next president of AniMaC club?
suppose i got the name list of the future "president"
but went through this few days of their performance
i quite disappoint on them
i wonder they will change their attitude or not?
i quite scare of it
if they dun change their attitude
it is hard for me to pass this "job" for them

i quite worry for our upcoming event now ><

emo again..

2008-09-24T16:51:00.000+08:00

this morning attended the AIMS meeting
which is organized by Andrew
can see that it's not easy to be a president
n need to thank him coz of getting the manpower from this club
of coz i'm the member of it too

well..
dunno y i feel a bit emo
i saw some1 work
suppose not like tat but den tat person get low mark coz of group members
so quite heart pain to see tat person like tat

went back
when think back of ytd things
like very very moody
dunno
no matter is a "special" frenz or normal frenz
i will still hate ppl to be rude
maybe i shouldnt care too much of her things den
juz treat her as some1 i not so close wif
else in a cantonese meaning
" to treat it good will get shocked by thunder"

juz now saw my housemates
den i smile back
maybe like w/o them i will very sian
lol
tmr got meeting between the group ldr of bon odori
1st time the meeting held not by me lol
but den i still feel this event is a serious stuff

bz n tire

2008-09-23T20:59:00.000+08:00

it was almost a week i didnt write the blog
ya
i was busying for my assignments and also club stuff
last thurs and fri was spent all my times on doing the bookmark for the club
coz the club promotion days
den sat and sun was spending the time on produce the crit presentation papers
so it kinda of rushing to finish out the works

ytd the crit presentation
from 10am wait till 1pm+ only my turn to present
they think ok for my board..n they ok wif it
so less than 10min den finished it
den rush to south wing to help the club stuff
we produced the bookmarks
but some of it cannot sell
it's kinda of sad coz we spent a lot of effort on it
den got some of our customers special ordered the character
so went back i went and produced it

of coz i finished up my wed submission 1st
den rushed the bookmark again
so when i finished d 4am

today woke up at 8am+
b4 tat still fresh
not yet tire
but den around 2pm+
i damn damn tire

so totally we sold out rm200+
still not in our target
but den we r going to prepare the bon odori stuff d
tire n tire

say GOODBYE to "Lantern Day"

2008-09-16T01:28:00.000+08:00

today is Middle Autumn Festival
ytd n today we played lantern
n today added on another activity
celebrated wei shen's bday also

it's been long times ago when i played the lantern
nvm
act as their grandpa
brought them go play lantern

usually b4 the lantern end
we would burned the lantern as closing ceremony
but den they still want to keep it

so it's time to say GOODBYE to Middle Autumn Festival
anyway Happy Bday to Wei Shen ^^

emo ...

2008-09-13T01:47:00.000+08:00

dunno y juz now suddenly feel very emo
haiz
tis morning n afternoon still can laugh
den back to home
suddenly feel very sad

suddenly feel very hate of my life now
dunno y
sometime still can jealous of other ppl
when they got sth happy or sad thing
u can share wif their beloved or wat
but i like no 1 i can share to
izzit tis is a single life?
maybe i almost bored of tis single life

still got a lot of assignments to do
somemore need to plan for the future activities and tis sem's activities
haiz
1 shoot on me
"BANG!"

General Meeting

2008-09-11T01:58:00.000+08:00

very satisfied wif today general meeting
coz it was out of my aspect

b4 the meeting started
there were 2 members entered the room
so i tot tat there will be the same again as last general meeting tat we held it

but den suddenly a lot of members entered it
including the new members

so roughly got more than 10 members and almost 20 members attended for it
a lot of new faces
the respond also satisfied
got Aaron and Kenshiu to support me
so everything was welldone

the Tshirt also done it
we sold out a lot
very happy
coz the club is growing up
we can earn a few to out club fund
so we still need to collect club fees

den we hope we can sell the bookmark to earn for our club fund
so tat we can do our bon odori event
gambate AniMaC

assignment

2008-09-07T23:30:00.000+08:00

tis final design assignment is damn hard
coz it's too abstract
suppose to design to our random chosen client
but now seems like we r designing for lecturer
i "chose" music
music is too abstract
we cant give the pic of "music"
we only can show them by "style"
but lecturer said tat style is not an idea
den style is wat?

haiz
really dunno how to do tis assignment
very confusing
i wonder i can pass tis subject or not >.<

looks so bad..

2008-09-05T22:14:00.000+08:00

tis afternoon
me, cicak and wai choon went to pudu
suppose to take the shirt we make
but den the person was not there
at the end have to wait

den we went to search the banner printing
during the searching
when we wanted to across the road
beside us have a 1 not really old man
roughly 50 years +
i think tat time he didnt see probably for the road
den he across it
n den 1 car bang on him
not really serious bang
but the sound of "bang" quite loud
the old man hold the other car coz cant stand it stable
n he keep hold his body coz it's was very pain

tat time we looks very bad
coz we see but didnt help
we somemore across the road w/o helping him
luckily the driver came out and carry the old man
the old man didnt scolded the driver
the driver want to send him go to clinic or hospital but he rejected
so at the end he feel nth and still go some where

i juz feel like i very bad
i feel to help him but i dunno y i didnt take action
juz feel guilty tat i didnt go and help him
feel quite useless to myself
haiz

no gaming

2008-09-04T23:51:00.000+08:00

ok
tis week will be my busiest week
coz sat i need to show our work to lecturer
and mon again show her another work

den tues will be another submission
wed is our club ice breaking for tis sem
i be the project manager
den need to get rdy our history presentation n journal
autoCAD only did during the class

wow damn bz o
especially the design stuff
1st dunno the assignment is design according to our client or lecturer
2nd dunno wat our lecturer want wif their blur explaination
3rd they alwiz change their mind anytime
4th they alwiz tell sth new during we submit the work

quite emo for today
but when went to giant wif my housemates
den feel much more better d

tis morning woke up
i also dunno y my right leg suddenly feel pain
haiz

since i am so bz rite now
think no more gaming anymore
coz of playing online game
i keep delay my work
i become so lazy
so no gaming anymore

sian

2008-09-02T00:22:00.000+08:00

today juz finished up the tech 2 assignment
but den i still dunno how to do the design assignment
tis thurs going to show her the tutorial thing
but i really no idea on it
coz it's too abstract
i dunno wat the lecturer want from us
haiz
die lo
design dunno will fail or not
><

shopping

2008-08-31T23:11:00.000+08:00

wow
today went to Balakong Jusco shopping wif cicak
it's been a while tat i didnt shopping like tat le
coz my family background some of my frenz know bout it
but i "steal" to shop at the end ><
i bought a jean, white t-shirt and 1 formal wear
cost me rm120+ ><
for me it's a lot
coz i'm poor =[

but quite happy
coz so long never buy the shirt for myself d
is time to change my style lo

but quite tire
especially tat lame restaurant
spent 2 hrs coz of tat stupid restaurant
the service is lousy

lol
happy coz got new shirts ^^

a bz and tire day

2008-08-30T02:50:00.000+08:00

8am sth
wake up for going preparing the orientation
ok
b4 the orientation start
1 of the trainee staff came and talk to me
he act is the ex UCSI student
now he is doing the training in certain department
den he asked me bout my comment bout the UCSI
lol
i told him quite honestly
wat i not satisfied on tis campus i juz directly told him
den he explained to me also

ok
10.45am
it was our club's turn to go on the stage and give a short presentation
it is sth to promote our club
quite nervous
i stuck half way
coz suddenly blank
but at the end still ok
b4 i ended it, i on the tsukurimasou song to show them lol
but some of them laugh lol
got respond lol

after the orientation
we took our lunch den went to the exhibition
the exhibition was ended at 4pm+
we arrived there was bout 3pm
so we cant get much brochure since their brochure was finished given
so no point
but we still got some material samples

there i met my sis's frenz
also my frenz's bro
kinda of weird got my secondary skool senior know who am i
he keeps looking at me n i keep looking at me
den he said "u r quite very familiar, from yok bin"
lol pro o..can know where am i come from lol
he doing the promotion for maxis

after tat
they decided to go shopping
omg
i damn damn tire d
the whole body like very tire
but they still want to shop
so i didnt say anything since very1 want to go except me
den they shop bout 2 hrs ><
b4 tat i planned to buy a jeans n white t shirt
den at the end no
hopefully tis sun can go balakong jusco buy some shirt
feel wanna buy my formal wear

k la..tire d
is time to sleep
nite

idea of design is so abstract

2008-08-28T18:24:00.000+08:00

today we juz had a short pin up presentation
den suddenly our club advisor redzwan entered out class
and together wif our lecturers to give the comment bout our final research

during my turn
i explained everything to them
ok..my client was a musician
her music concept was acoustic fusion
so i arranged my space for her at beach
den i designed her music studio beside her bed room also
den redzwan asked me y designed her room beside the music studio
so i answered him
"my client need more energy, most of her time will staying at studio, so if she tire den she can directly go back to her room to rest or sleep since it is near"
den he not agreed wif me and said
"she tire y not go makan?"
and he asked
"ok, let's say tmr u got a submission,u r tire now, u will go sleep or makan?"
i said i will go sleep
he asked " tmr is submission date d wor?!"
i said " y not? i sleep for 1hr and wake up to continue and do the work"
he answered " tats y u r study architecture but not musician" =.=
i no idea wat he talking bout

den next question he asked y my container located near the roadside
coz it will occur a lot of distortion sounds like transportation sounds
den he act the sound of the transportation
i explained tat her music concept is acoustic fusion
so it will give her more inspiration
but den he keep act the sound w/o listening to me

haiz
the design is so abstract
i know my client more den them
so i dun think they understand it
somemore he said my design not according to sense
but i guess tat his idea some more no sense than me
but he's lecturer
i cant do anything
i can shoot but it's limit
so i only can support my own idea
juz roughly edit a bit
haiz

design.... act is so abstract =.=

bz soon

2008-08-28T01:25:00.000+08:00

tis few days i alwiz so relax
dunno
maybe get attracted on cabalsea =.=
but i still not as attract as how i play on maplesea
i still got did my assignment
but not as kiasu as last time
lol
but juz scare i over attracted on tis on game

next week their new sem will start soon
so my club also will start to get bz
haiz
bit lazy to touch club stuff o ><
so terrible
starting to get lazy and lazy
now also almost end of sem
and final assignment all started
mean everything need to get prepare d

touch

2008-08-26T01:50:00.000+08:00

the new series of Tang Xin Feng Bao of Jia Hao Yue Yuan
quite touch and also angry of certain person
i even watched till feel wanna to cry out
and also feel wanna scold bad words on tat person

the series is still not yet finish
still got a lot of nice "show" at the back

recently got bit lazy on doing homework
i also dunno y
sometime i feel regret on the things i did
haiz
but sometime i also think tat i didnt did wrong anything
maybe i need to learn how to impatient
and control my temperate
i easily angry
i lack of calm down
anyway
wish me good luck in the future

over relax -.-

2008-08-24T00:37:00.000+08:00

tis morning
i went to play badminton wif kenshiu they all
like dunno how long i didnt play badminton at KL d
but it juz consider as playing for fun since tats no match playing
seriously among our senior
kenshiu was the most friendly and closer to us
somemore is our club committee member

after went back
a few later
den housemates decided to watch movie
lol
i rest at home not even 1 hr den go out le
we watched Wall E
it's a nice movie although is not as nice as Kung Fu Panda
but the story have a indirect meaning
it asking us not to destroy our Earth but protect our Earth
and not over depend on robotic machine
but manual more
tis movie less talk except the human talk
the rest were juz the robot voice

den today was doing nth bout homework
lol so tmr need to work harder d ><

huh

2008-08-22T20:42:00.000+08:00

today we skipped class
coz leong asked us to skip
but also good for me
coz i also no mood to attend the class
somemore tats history class
more boring

so we went to McD took our breakfast
but i didnt aspect
i saw my best frenz's gf there
wif our another frenz whose is from Malacca
like very long times didnt saw him
but when i saw them together
they juz like a couple
but i dunno they r stead together or not

act it's good for her since my best frenz "gone" for a year
so it's time to cure her pain
i think even he also will ask her not to waste any chance anymore

nicholas nicholas
if u r here
i need ur help to cure i tis stupid fella thinking le
i really useless
i need ur guide
if not i will make the mistake again
haiz ><

disappear

2008-08-21T00:50:00.000+08:00

juz now watched the drama
when i watched
got a few part juz like my family
yeah
i got the feel when i watched it
i almost cried
wat the movie happened, wat they did
our family members did it b4

seriously i feel very sad
i dun find any1 which suitable to share my prob
got few times i was thinking to skip the class
previously i never contact my sis
but tis time i forced to contact her to ask for the prob

tis sem will be another darkness for me
i dunno i still can stand for how long
no..
should be my family still can stand for how long
y?
y the mistake must keep repeating?
y they knew the mistake will destroy the whole thing
but they still want to repeat it?
izzit must see 1 of us "gone" or disappear only u realize tat it is wrong?

i really dunno how to teach only they understand
i dunno how to explain only they understand
i dunno how to scold them only they understand
izzit i should disappear in this world only they will live happily?

...

2008-08-19T16:02:00.000+08:00

sad..
sad..
i feel very sad..
can i cry?
a guy cry izzit a useless guy?
but cry also cant solve the prob
should i take action on it?
i dunno
i wanna go back now
i want to scold ...
i sad and also very angry
as well as i also very disappoint...

lose but proud

2008-08-17T23:45:00.000+08:00

lee chong wei
although u lose on tis Olympic 2008 badminton competition
although u failed to get the Gold medal
although ur points is far from lindan points
but u gain the exp tat no 1 gain it for now
tats the improvement

yup
i knew u since year 2003
tat time was our Malaysia Open competition
during tat time u still a normal player
i heard ur name b4 but i dunno who u r
den during tis competition
u suddenly entered the semi final
u defeated korean's lee hyunn yi
suddenly i shocked coz a new malaysia player was so strong
when u entered final and ur opponent was China's Chen Hong
u lost it..u cried like a baby
but ur name was noted it in our mind

the following year of Malaysia Open
at final u defeated Chen Hong and become champion
after tat time
ur ranking was slowly and slowly and entered top number 2
u ever be top 1 b4
although it was juz a short times
but u tried ur best b4 rite

i ever rmb tat i met u in melaka
when tat time both of u going to join the Melaka Open competition
i saw u at Mahkota Parade
and eating McD ice cream wif a lot of players such as chong tan fook, chan chong ming, guan ming fook
tat time if i hold the paper n pen..
i want to get the signature from u

u know
u r growing up
u make our malaysian's record
it's been 10 years + malaysia didnt get any medal anymore
since the last time to get the silver medal was yam kim hock they all
but u make it again

u lose but u should proud to urself
tats y dun give up no matter how
u still can improve
the upcoming Olympic
fight again and get back our Malaysia 1st GOLD

no 1 will blame u
coz u r the 1st time to enter Olympic final
surely u will get stress and tension
u r begging too many stress from our government
tats y u out of form
those who watched ur match wif Lin Dan in the latest Thomas Cup
they knew ur skill
juz tat u stress till cant do it
but tats ok..as long as u tried ur best
no gold but got silver
it was a better gift for us

so plz work harder ^^

happy day + angry day

2008-08-16T01:23:00.000+08:00

today quite happy
but also got a angry day too
to share for the bad thing 1st
tats my mom asked for money transfer again
seriously i damn damn angry on her
she is very selfish
n i dunno wat's wrong wif her
y need to lie my dad again?
y i still help her?
y i dunwan to ask her wat happened again?
maybe i keep escape from the fact

today went to lowyat
suppose i didnt buy new pc
but sun planned to buy wif neko chan
den the seller said better buy today
else sun will be very crowded
coz of many customers
they will spend quite long times on plugging our desktop chipset
so at the end i decided to buy

ok
new pc was here
so happy but not tat happy la
juz tat my pc become very fast speed
n monitor become very bright w/o darker screen anymore
kaka

btw
lee chong wei entered final
tats mean at least he got 1 silver in his hand
he break our malaysia record which 10 years + didnt get any medal anymore
seriously very happy for him
coz he did very well on tis olympic
see
chinese is useable den malay la
hahaha

the harder assignment

2008-08-14T19:30:00.000+08:00

today was handout our final assignment
wow
damn harder assignment
coz we need to design a compact living house for our client
and our client was according to specific profession
such as musician, painter, fashion designer n so on

i got musician =.=
tats mean our compact interior rooms must have some kind of things
which is related to music
their identities, their style and their concept

our space must include:
working area
sleeping room
bath room
dining room
kitchen
living room

den now we need to do the site analysis
omg
we some more need to show baizura our photo
which must took photo from us
but no internet photo
it's harder
the site we can choose is beach, stream, river, lake, hill and forest
the only we took is in beach which is bagan lalang
forest at selayang
tats all
damn it lo
it was limited
and musician =.=
no idea for them
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!

some body kill me ><
this assignment was combined together wif design comm and tech 2
horhor
once tis design failed den all failed
so stress le =.=
all combine together
especially tech 2
i weak in materials
T.T

god bless me den =[

cak cheer up

2008-08-13T15:49:00.000+08:00

cheer up cak
dun give up o
ur frenz will still come back n will keep in touch wif u
now the technology was high tech
so gambate ne ^^

happy and relax

2008-08-11T17:43:00.000+08:00

today is our presentation
n we juz past it
1st time my lecturer praised my design
she didnt comment bout my boards at all
she juz comment bout my presentation skill
she asked me not to use too directly words when presentation
but to use more design principal on it
n the board she mentioned was dun use diff material of papers
else will looks like 2 diff ppl do the works
but overall she said it's good XD
1st time le lol
anyway thanks to KS for ask me short cut for my points and the ideas lol

after tat they asked to eat sushi king =.=
luckily i sms cak to send me the sms free vouncher
else i bankrupt d

den went to "hit game"
go play Day Dona, KOF, Bubble Pubbles and "ping pong"
go relax a bit mah
lol

dunno

2008-08-10T13:51:00.000+08:00

tis week is quite a tough week
coz a lot of assignments and exam
juz finished the midterm exam
den now we r rushing the presentation board for tmr
so tmr got presentation
and have to wear formal attire

den like still got sth i need to do
animac club like stuck there since long ago d
not yet plan for next sem activities
den looks like we still got a lot of assignments
autoCAD, tech 2, drafting 2...
omg... dun feel wanna do d
feel wanna rest more

still not yet buy my new desktop o
><
when only i can have it le????? ToT

finished history exam

2008-08-09T00:20:00.000+08:00

woww
today juz finished the history mid-term exam
totally feel a bit relax
overall..i dunno can pass or not
juz wish to get pass
coz some of the things i memorized didnt out
n some of them i forget during the exam
so juz wish to pass den it is more than enuff d

anyway
juz now watched the olympic 2008 open ceremony
not bad wor
juz tat wait for the all the countries to come out is damn boring
but the performance n fireworks was very nice
lol

i hate

2008-08-07T21:25:00.000+08:00

i now feel fuck
i now feel very worry bout my tmr history exam
den juz now my mom called me n annoying me
y?
y everytime she wants to be like tis?
y she keeps teach me to cheat my dad?
huh?!
y everytime when i wanna buy sth
sure she came n ask me transfer tis to tis n there

i seriously damn hate my mom
i now cannot concentrate on my revision d
keep thinking of tis lame things
y?
izzit i have to learn on cheating on my dad?

y everytime when i wanna scold my mom
my housemates sure surrounding me?
i seriously want to scold her d..
y keep hide tis n tat???
i seriously feel wanna kill myself now
i dun feel wanna do exist in tis world anymore
damn fuck now

Last day of Non-contact week

2008-08-03T22:18:00.000+08:00

at the end my last day for non-contact week is end
so today afternoon
i suppose to take a nap
coz i feel sleepy when reading Eye Shield 21 manga
den suddenly huihui knocked my room
den i totally get shocked
b4 tat she wants to go KLCC again for her laptop stuff
so i go take a bath n get rdy
den after tat huihui said her frenz "force" to help her lol
so didnt go KLCC
ok lo..den i planned to go giant and walk
but no 1 want to accompany me
den i planned to drive car n simply go anywhere
den huihui said wanna follow me lo
the purpose i going out is i really do nth at home
coz i no mood to study n do my assignment as well as gaming
at the end we decided to go Balakong Jusco

i planned to buy a jeans n a white shirt
but the jeans i want no size
got size 1 not yeng enuff
and no enuff time since huihui want to study
so we quickly took our dinner n buy the mineral water they needed

when going back
we need to pay the ticket
at the end i got fooled by tat stupid ticket
no wonder we keep inserted the ticket into the machine n got rejected
usually the main surface is the ticket we should insert
but tis 1 is reverse =.=

left out from jusco
den only realized tat we took wrong way to go
dunno y we accidently took kajang way to go back
luckily we didnt lost
n thanks to my kai jie's bf ever teach me the way from UKM to Cheras
ok lo
feel relax bit
but still think not to do anything lol

non-contact week

2008-08-03T16:44:00.000+08:00

a non-contact week is end soon

last friday was juz began the non-contact week
i went back melaka together wif huihui and neko chan
so last Fri to Sun was playing and relaxing days

den Mon we having a site visit to Rumah Orang Asli and waterfall
when went home den do nth
coz no mood to do

Tues went to computer lab did autoCAD
den 1pm sth we went to watch Dark Knight at Mid Valley
after tat went back also do nth again

Wed 10am till 3pm
did autoCAD the whole morning
luckily was finished
even engineering students having the lab test
but we still did it w/o ignoring them
at nite also do nth

Thurs afternoon went another site visit at PJ
is brickhouse of Sea Park
den went home
wanna start the drafting but at the end dunno wat scale to use
so at the end do nth
so went to giant slacking coz very hot when staying at home
Thurs was a bad day at the end coz of sth happened

Fri the whole afternoon did the drafting
after tat went to skool look for lecturer to ask sth bout drafting
den everything need to redraw it
evening attend a Student Council meeting
got a lot of fresh ideas
den went back and continue my drafting

Sat went to PC fair
wif huihui, neko chan, song, max n cicak
i went to price checking
almost attracted by 1 shop
coz neko chan keep ask me to think bout tat shop
but it's ok le..and attractive
but went home..final decision was dunwan
evening cut hair
nite do some design board

Sun
totally no mood to do anything
coz dunno wat act i wanna to think
like panic of sth but dunno wats tat
think today will be a "doing nth" day again

Sorry

2008-08-02T20:21:00.000+08:00

i would like to say soli to some1
after 2 days of memorizing back the incident
ya
i did wrong
i shouldn't lie her
but i will not to explain bout it
i juz want to make an apologize tat for lying her
everything is up to her whether wanna to forgive me or not
tats all

RIP again ><

2008-08-01T23:23:00.000+08:00

i think tat time i still sleeping
but during tat time
was happening a scary incident
tats a big accident happened on our nearby area

a big lorry bang to the 5 cars and 1 motor
and very unlucky
2 person was dead at the end
4 person was injured
1 person still cannot awake n in ICU

coz of tat lorry driver
to make the rest become an innocent
tis incident also recalled on my 2 frenz
they also "gone" very innocent
coz 1 main person made a mistake
den to make the rest also involved on the mistake too
at the end they "gone" to heaven

anyway RIP to them ><

brickhouse , SeaPark

2008-07-31T21:37:00.000+08:00

today went to a site visit
named as brickhouse, Sea park
it is nice design
act there r the same architect as the rumah orang asli
the architect is landscape architect
so his concept is more on natural

this house was located in housing area
somemore stead together wif double story house
n also sth like hotel
inside got a lot of rooms
if want to rent a nite..is bout rm600
quite cheap
plan end of tis sem
junior and senior go there as vacation
Babi Cute and steamboat ba
but i dunno they want or not
the house can fit 10+ ppl
quite ok lo

on the way back
i followed Saw Yin car to go back
walao
she really simply drive 1
i followed her car also feel unsafety
but lucky i arrived here safely =.=

change pc

2008-07-30T01:03:00.000+08:00

i want to change my pc le
the monitor almost dead soon
and den my hardisc space almost not enuff
and my ram was functioning slow
omg
i dunwan to stand it anymore
stupid PTPTN havent come yet
suppose to come on tis month
almost end of tis month le
stupid government
can work faster a bit or not
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
i want change new pc le
WTF lo

1 day trip to Rawang

2008-07-29T00:26:00.000+08:00

it was a very boring trip
8am gathered at skool
but at the end we departed from skool at 9am
den suppose to take 1 hr arrive our destination
but at the end took 3 hrs to reach there

no lunch there
everything need to settle by ourselves
so we bought burger king as our lunch later

when we arrived Rawang
den we were entered the Rumah Orang Asli village
a big bus tried to enter a small road
very swt

there
the house still ok
but a lot of mosquitoes
and got a lot of ants which is the size very big
spend there bout 2 hrs

after tat we went to waterfall
omg
the water is damn dirty
i saw it also not dare to enter the water
only use our legs n stand there
but the water is cold
so feel quite comfort

at the end the trip was ended like tat
n i keep sleeping in the bus
coz it was really tire and tire

3 days 2 nites Melaka Trip

2008-07-27T17:52:00.000+08:00

Fri

arrived at melaka bout 9pm
den they said wanna eat durian
so i went and search any durian around my area or not
coz i rarely eat durian at outside in my hometown
den we found a place den having our durian there
quite cheap coz only cost rm19 for 3 durians

went back den take a bath
and continued n brought them to Jonker walk
walk half way den i brought them to my hometown frenz there
haha
so long never saw them d
but they like to talk nonsense lo
when i asking serious question
den they answered nonsense =.=
but anyway i dunno huihui and neko chan enjoy or not

den arrived home bout 3am
they took a bath again
but i dunno which crazy pig came n scold us
my sis really brainless
how can scold ppl's frenz
they r guest
omg..
if they r not here..i will argue wif her d
den they get shocked
they suppose to sleep wif her
but after tat incident
they slept wif me n my bro sleep wif my sis
soli guys =.=

Sat

in the morning
i went to service my car
but at the end
coz take time
went back took a bath
den i brought them go took brunch
suppose to bring them to eat vege
but i dunno since when the shop changed to Korean food
but they said wanna try
but it was a nice food
so both of us spent rm70 there

den i brought them to Tan Kim Hock buy melaka's sweet
called dol dol
but they seems dun like
at the end they bought nth

after tat went to Mahkota Parade
but seems like they didnt get attracted by it
but they prefer Pahlawan Mall
so they bought a few shirts
we suppose to buy a puzzle n play during tis holiday
but no anime style
so gave up

after tat went to A' Famosa
wow
they took a lot pictures
i be their camera man + ah sei (maid)
help them carry their bags
but they really enjoy it la lol
i still scare they will get bored there

almost 7pm
we took dinner wif my family
at a vege shop
lol they feel shy..same as last time when i brought ks, cicak n cak
8pm we went back to Jonker Walk again
coz ytd juz walked half way
wow
they bought a lot
compare to cak..they really bought a lot
i saw CY there..
geng..from Muar came to here..really free
almost 10pm
they said tire d
their legs feel pain
so i brought them to Sampan
a open air cafe..but more suitable for couple coz romantic
den they said to be my 1 hr gf haha
sot sot de
but they said very comfort + romantic lol
den we chit chat our past..n relationship lo
wow..i grabbed a lot of secrets XD

b4 we went home
i suppose to bring them to A' Famosa to see the nite view decoration
but they said tats very common..
so wif a sad feeling n went home lol

Sun

they woke up earlier den me
coz i too tire
but den i got shocked when they on my tv
the sound very loud
so i accidently woke up

den i brought them to have brunch a vege shop
den i saw nicholas's family there
omg
i didnt aspect it would happened
i juz scare if they saw me..den they will recalled back their son..
haiz

after tat i went to fetch my kai jie
den we together go to Cheng Hyun Teng temple pray
go bai bai mah
to get some luck on our coming exam
den went to the nearby shop shopping
after tat i went to Sek Kah Yin pray for my frenz
i saw a gal keep crying
but last time i also like tis..haiz

so after tat
we leave melaka and went back to KL

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think the trip in melaka is not tat fun
coz melaka really nth to go
n i didnt prepare well
coz it too sudden
i havent finish plan
so everything is last min plan
i hope they still feel ok on tis trip lo ><

short break

2008-07-25T00:13:00.000+08:00

tmr going back melaka
consider as short break
den my 2 juniors will follow me
but quite headache
i dunno where i should bring them to play
n 1 of them is vegetarian
omg
quite headache
and quite sudden
den ask my kai jie
she like answering me nonsense lo =.=

aiyo
think roughly le
wanna do some research bout melaka also cannot
stupid cari keep down

problem?

2008-07-23T02:26:00.000+08:00

every1 must have prob
every1 have their own prob
every1 have diff prob wif us

but some ppl also have same prob

juz now chit chat wif a frenz
he also having the same prob wif me

but of coz mine was more

we also facing the prob wif the club
we also facing the prob wif the studies
we also facing the prob between frenz

but mine even related on family and luv

club..
lack of commitment
lack of manpower
if i dun do den no 1 will do
every1 tot i very free n do the club stuff
but if no1 do it, den who going to do?
n i need to push den only work will running
so if i dun?

studies..
i also stress
i even dunno how to do on certain homework
i cant ignore
i have to learn
coz tis was related on my future work
i got extra time den i need to do my other work
so how do i manage my time?

family..
of coz is bout money
i rarely use tat money on entertainment
some ppl even said i like a ppl who keep staying at home
if i got more money
i also wanna to update myself
n even my parents keep scolding me for not going back hometown
but do they know i bz like hell?
even sleep also not enuff time to sleep =.=

luv
tats extra prob
but although my mouth keep saying tat postponed of luv searching
but sometime it's feel loneliness
really need a gf to caring me
lack of luv caring =.=

next week will be non contact week
consider as holiday
but it will be not a holiday
coz we still got assignment to rush
so it is not holiday
but only for us to sleep more bit for everyday
anyway wish my prob can be solve asap

心情世界

Christmas

也许只是想太多了

黑暗世界

决定性

失败

怎么办

微笑

奇迹

最伤心的一天

遭遇

Comment bout this sem (Finally)

loss weight

A blur grandpa's story

carry a girl

sux assignment

Yay!

Secondary Memories

unforgotten scene

Do u understand?

External Review

Final Project

cry

seiyuu

复杂的感觉

the past

heartless

Earth Hour

stop it

serious

Badminton

finally

post moterm

crazy

Bunkasai

ended the life

die together

problems

trying my best

firework

F*ck*r

CNY shopping

thanks buddies

new sem start

kindergarten kids

Lonely life

Welcoming new year 2009

xmas gift

over relax

Proposal + Arcade

fail on watching movie

looking part time

damn

bad..

bored?

a week..

happy bday ah huihui

phew..

stress

assignment and exam week

happy birthday cak

almost sick

over relax

lucky day

future president?

emo again..

bz n tire

say GOODBYE to "Lantern Day"

emo ...

General Meeting

assignment

looks so bad..

no gaming

sian

shopping

a bz and tire day

idea of design is so abstract

bz soon

touch

over relax -.-

Fckr